Sunday, February 26, 2012

To move or not to move. . . That is the question

So lately I've been thinking about moving back home to the George of Saint. But I don't know. Don't get me wrong I love SUU. I love the classes and the atmosphere here at SUU. BUT I can't afford it and I hate the location of it. This has been the most stressful, depressing, energy consuming, confusing, anxiety attacking semester I've ever had. I started mornings at my job so now I'm up by 4 a.m. and with school, homework, and life I'm usually in bed by 9 or 10.  So I'm usually getting 6 to 7 hours of sleep which for me isn't all that bad. (I work better off of 6 to 7 hours of sleep than I do with 8.) But I have a problem. I get so stressed and have mini anxiety attacks that I'm going to sleep in and get fired that I constantly wake up every hour just to check the time to see if I slept in.

I HATE IT. I hate that I am constantly waking up.I hate that I can't have a good nights rest, not even on weekends. I hate that I'm constantly worrying about if I can make it next month with paying rent and other bills. What stresses me out even more!? Rumor Has It  (I love Adelle) SUU is raising tuition.. EFF. . . I can't afford to pay rent, let alone if tuition raises how am I supposed to go to school?!

Anyways vent over.

So I've been thinking about moving back home. I don't know. I made a Pros and Cons list and my "pros" are two pages long and my "cons" are only a half page. So yeah. My pros for moving back are pretty big. But I can't afford to be "seasonal" at Lin's. . BUT Lin's is hiring!!! They are hiring for a Meat Deli Clerk which for the past two weekends I have been working and training for. SO. . . Tomorrow I'm going to call Jordan (Meat Manager) and see if I can apply for the job and if he will give it to me and handle me working part time evenings for the next month or so until school is out. And if he gives it to me then I'll move back home, go back to school at Dixie, and save up some money so I can try living on my own again some day. I guess you really don't have to read this since I've already made up my mind that I'll move back if I get the job. But I like typing out my problems. Eventually you're going to hear my reasons for what I do, so why not just put it on here and let you all read it. Right?

- Love, Peace, Chicken Grease

P.S. Sydney, If you read this. If I move back we can finally do our concealed weapons permit and gun!!


Logan and Sydney said...

Yay! I'm so excited! I think it would be fun to take it with you. Logan already has one:( How cool would it be to be able to carry a gun? HAHAHAH!

Anisa said...

Just get married already:)