A Letter for Grandma

Sunday night I got a call from my dad saying that he was on his way up to Sandy because Grandma wasn't doing so well and that he will call me in the morning for more details. I was a little nervous but I figured she would be fine since last time I got that phone call she was up and walking around when I drove up there.

I was woken up by a phone call from dad saying that Grandma didn't make it and that she has gone to be with Grandpa. Last time I was with her our entire family was there and we all said our 'Goodbyes' as a whole. I figured that since all the other grand kids lived near her were able to have a one-on-one with her, I was never able to have a one-on-one session with my grandma like I would have wanted. But that's what this post is about.

Dear Grandma,

I love you. And I miss you. I know we never were able to have a conversation with just us, but that's what this is. I just want to say Thank You. Thank you for all you have done. 

I've been mourning the loss of you this whole week when a beautiful mother who I have considered as another mother was finally able to inspire me to mourn, but more importantly to celebrate your life. And that is what this is. This is my way of celebrating your life. 

Thank you for teaching me to include everyone. I know your English was broken and you preferred Tongan, but you knew that my brother and I never really understood the language so you always tried your hardest to speak in English. I want to thank you for that. Thank you for unknowingly teaching us all to include everyone in everything no matter what the barrier was. 

 I want to thank you for showing me how to give and serve. It didn't matter how you felt, you always had the energy to give something to someone else, whether it was baking cakes or making food for a family. When you went on two missions it showed me that you care so much about the gospel that you are willing to share and give the knowledge that you know to others so that they can love the gospel just like you.

I want to thank you for having dreams with me. I knew Cash was the one for me to be with forever when I knew he had to meet you. I wish he could have met Grandpa too, but he will when he gets up there and waits for me. I know you were waiting for a call from me saying that we have set a wedding date so that you can start making our wedding cake. (And to be honest, even though everyone told me to keep telling you no. I would have said yes. Because that's what you wanted and I wanted it too.) But now you can be there. You will be at our wedding to enjoy and dance along with us. I know you will bring Grandpa and others when you come to be apart of that joyful day. 

I want to thank you for showing me how to be strong. I believe I got my strength from you. Before you were diagnosed with cancer you showed how strong you were to be able to leave us here and go on two missions. You showed me how strong your passion and love for the gospel was and that you were willing do anything to share your love. After you were diagnosed you showed me how strong you were for the family. I didn't really see any of your bad days, but if I did you were strong enough to still be apart of our activities, even if you were just a bystander. You showed me that even if you didn't feel well or if something wasn't going right you were strong enough to hold the family together.

But most of all, I want to thank you for this family. Thank you for coming to this great country to not only pursue your dreams, but also your children's dreams.Thank you for creating a family with Grandpa that is willing to open their arms and their hearts to everyone. Thank you for teaching this family to love the gospel and to be faithful to the church. 

I love you Salote Kalielea Pale Vuki.

God Be With You Until We Meet Again

Love,

Kalilea (Kali) Ana Vuki

It's been awhile. . .

I know. I'm horrible. I haven't kept up with this blog in quite some time. And I only have one reason. . . . . . . 

I'M FRIGGIN BUSY

Right as the spring semester started my work (Lin's) has gone into remodel mode. Well, they started the day after Thanksgiving, but they didn't go full force until January. It's been insane. Lately, and literally, all I have done is work or school. No social life, no love life, nothing. Just ask Miriam and Cash or my Lin's famn damily. I don't really have time for any of them. And I hate it. But I have just a few short 20 minutes before my next class so I'll be quick and tell you what's been going on.

School: It's crazy but somehow I'm getting better grades than what I had expected with what else is going on. (Part of why I'm so busy) But the best part is it's all about writing papers. (Minus math. That subject can just burn in hell forever.) Good thing I'm an excellent writer or else I'd be screwed. Oh, and I'm thinking about going back up to SUU. I know I've been up there and back but I just don't feel like I was ready for it and with what has been happening not only at home but everywhere else that has made me grow I feel as if I'm ready and I could handle being away this time. 

Work: It's in remodel and that alone is crazy. We hired some new people, they all seem cool so don't worry about them they're new faces but they're learning as quick as they can. (Other part of why I'm so busy)

Relationships: It's as if they have been put on hold for the time being. It sucks and shouldn't happen (I'll make that change soon) I try and make time to spend with Cash but it's as if I get called in to cover a shift or he makes other plans on the days I have off so we hardly ever see each other. It's as if I'm single but I have a guy who I hang out with barely once a week but too tired to really do anything with other than sit on the couch and just do nothing because I'm exhausted. (Long distance relationships suck and are more work than any other type of relationship. But I wouldn't trade it for the world. He is mine and I am his.)

Health: Somehow with all of the stuff I have going on I have been able to go to Dr. Pinkston at Advance Health and doing NAET (Nambudripad's Allergy Elimination Technique) This is a whole other blog post that is set aside for when I have more time and not just a few minutes. It's amazing how this process works. And I'm also writing research papers on it so I'm becoming the know-it-all of NAET for my family and friends. Oh, and WINGS.  I have only gone through one session of it but I can tell a MAJOR difference on how I used to handle certain situations and how I handle them now. (Part of the reason I feel like I'm ready to go back to SUU. And another blog post on it's own that I will disclose with you.)

So yeah. I've been that busy. 

- Love, Peace, Chicken Grease

K.